That's sooo relatable for me, i remember when i tried to say a joke, but in the middle of it i couldn't say a word (only after 3 seconds) and during this 3 seconds my thoughts were (god damn just say this word is it so hard for you??? Ahhh who am i kidding, i should have kept quiet and don't open my mouth) yeap, all these words in 3 seconds in my thoughts lol and after i said the joke, i felt myself so pathetic that was a terrible feeling, now if i feel that I can't say it, (even if i want to) i just don't talk, what about you guys? How do you cope with it?