Imagine for a moment that you managed to rid off stuttering. What's next? You're the same person and as practice shows, there are a lot of people without speech problems that have suicidal ideation as well. I highly doubt stuttering is your most concern yet I have no clue why you still pay it so much attention. Maybe you hide problems that are much deeper than simple communication difficulties? What would I advise though, stop asking your loved ones to do things you have to perform yourself. Also consider separation if you still didn't.