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M8, I used to be in your shoes, like exactly in your shoes. I used to be extremely sensitive to people's requests, tried not to annoy people, even though my stutter did even though I couldn't control it. I was tired of getting laughed and walked on by peers and potential people I wouldn't mind going out with. The time was nye that I grew a backbone, and so I did. I was going to a counselor, and speech language pathologist to try and cope with with my stutter affecting my social life because it was making me depressed, really depressed, you know what I mean. One night, a night before I had my next meeting with them, I sat crying in my dorm room in college, I was a sophomore, contemplating suicide because I had no friends because my stutter was so bad. Then it clicked. Why should I give a fuck about what people think about something I can't control. Everyone has faults and why is mine any different than a home else's. Yeah, I can't speak normal, who cares, to my friends and family, for the most part, I was a very funny, charismatic person, so why can't I be like that to everyone else? It's a mental block as much as it is a stuttering problem. I can't prove it, but I swear that if people stopped caring what people thought about them as they stuttered, they wouldn't be stuttering. It worked for me, it worked for a childhood friend of mine who had a worse stutter than me, and mine was bad. I went from no friends to holding many prominent positions in clubs and organizations on campus, from SGA to fraternity to Activities Board, etc. You need to break the mind block and gain the mentality of "if people aren't respectful of me, they don't deserve my respect." Trust me, it helps. What do you have to lose