Welcome. We can all relate to what you are experiencing, and yeah it can hurt big time. Sometimes your audience and friends will pretend to not bother about it and that's good for them - but we know what an inconvenience we can be without them having to hint at it. The world is such that we cannot but have to compete with others, and deep down people will always look at us with pity more than admiration. We can make hearts from guts but at the end of the day stuttering is a part of us and if we don't make peace with it, we'll never be in peace. Hope you benefit as much as you can.