It probably has a lot to do with the way you are far more social when you’re drinking as well. I know when I used to drink, I became the most social, talkative, hilarious and popular person in any group I was in. That is who I would be if I did not stutter. I love being the centre of attention, and the person who ensures everyone is having a great time. In a perfect world, that is the real me. When I’m sober I rarely speak, let alone hang around other people. I avoid all social gatherings, or even simple outings with just one person. I’m much better with girls than guys, and used to often spend time with girls. I don’t drink anymore, nor do I hang around girls much either. I receive a lot of invites, but feel more and more comfortable just staying home with each passing year. I’m kind of thinking my useful life is behind me.