I know, and I know that there're good assholess too. I am different overall man, I don't fit in, never did. But the point what is different that other can defend themselves, I can't. I can't say a fckin sentence, I do but people are gone, they laugh, they dont let me finish what I want to say, they interrupt me, they push me and I let them I am not capable to be aggressive, to fight back I break down instead, I have tears in my eyes, I feel anxious and u know... It doesnt have to be the stutter it can be anything, whatever I don't care about people but at the same time I do because I am harmless, wearing my heart on the sleeve, weak pathetic so everyone can get me, you know. They may laugh about how I sit or whatever bullsh... why it hurts is because I cant do anything. I know and you are right about that, it doesnt have to be joking, it's interrupting, seeing them how bothered they are or they say sth mean, walking away from me when I am saying sth etc etc. Yeah no, that's not me and I wont laugh when I dont find it funny, sometimes I find some jokes about stuttering funny but yeah u know. Yeah lol, slightly different well say hi for 10 seconds.... high moral ground I thought so too and it is brave showing this extreme vulnerability, voice shaking, I am shaking, close to tears but I have no power, I am not capable of saying hey I am talking to you asshole, wait or just hey I didnt stop talking wait please.... but when I feel so low it's I am not cspable of uttering the word and I am capable of crying in the streets etc man u don't understand, I just don't know..