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I read this anxiety/low stress explanation again and again, yet I only began stuttering a few months ago, as a 55 yr old adult. I had absolutely no anxiety whatsoever regarding speaking and yet I suddenly had the onset of stuttering which varies from situation to situation. I’ve never stuttered when talking to my dog or myself. Sometimes I don’t stutter at all, regardless of situation. Other times I stutter in situations that are stress free. I find that I become more fluent when I’m deeply engaged in a conversation or carrying on intense debate. I would expect those situations to elicit more stuttering, not less. I become very fluent when I argue with my husband but if we’re discussing our days, I’ll stutter. Is this neurogenic adult o set stuttering just different or perhaps I’ve not yet had time to develop the stuttering-anxiety connection? Honestly I still regularly forget that I stutter and strike up conversations with strangers only to find myself surprised that I’m stuttering, but since most people seem entirely cool with it and don’t give me negative feedback I guess it hasn’t really changed my behavior much. I do find that when making phone calls, I stutter more and expect to stutter more so I can maybe see a feedback loop developing there. But honestly, I don’t mind making calls nor do I mind talking to people or in front of people. I spoke a lot at a meeting last night. The people there are aware that I’ve recently developed a stutter. I’ve politely asked one or two of them not to interrupt or finish my sentences. They’ve been gracious and complied. There’s not much more to say about it. So I don’t feel like the pattern fits. There’s got to be more to this than just speaking anxiety. If I literally forget that I stutter, I am not anxious or fearful of stuttering when I begin to speak. I do notice that when I’m really tired it happens more. But there was never that developmental aspect that everyone seems to emphasize; about anxiety and fear of speaking causing them to stutter. What’s going on here? Any thoughts? I suppose developmental stuttering and adult onset stuttering must have differences but it seems that there would be similarities also. I keep posting and hoping to find the other adult onset stutterers but they appear to be very few.