I never really cared what people thought, I just don't like or tolerate disrespect from people when it comes to the stutter that's caused me so much pain in life. And I can tell right off the bat if a certain person will try to clown me if I stutter and make a fool of myself around them. So alot of times I just stay quiet and don't even bother meeting most people at this point. I'm lonely but it's better than getting clowned or having to potentially punch somebody in the mouth for going too far. I'm a grown man and I can't risk getting treated like a retard infront of people especially if it's a situation I can't walk away and I have to see these people day after day. At this point if I can I just walk away from disrespectful people, but in life you can't always get away from assholes unfortunately. That's just my perspective