Stuttering robbed me from getting intimate with people

Stuttering robbed me from getting intimate with people Now to start I have a good amount of friends.Although that may change when we go out separate ways to college soon.I just feel as if I’m not getting intimate enough with people.I keep trying to dilly dally around words that are hard to say so I don’t even say what I really want sometimes.Every social event I go to I just prep myself to stop being anxious so I don’t stutter.I just need a drug or something to cure this shit my gosh.My stutter isn’t severe thank God but I just wish I could say how I feel without my face scrunching up or me losing Rythm while my mouth stays open.Any technique or vid I should watch would be appreciated🙏🏿