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Confront about my stutter My stutter really have taken toll on me this semester. A lot of presentation needed to be done and the fact it's all online just worsen the situation. Last wednesday I had an impromptu conversation practice with my teammates for english class in front the lecturer and other people. I don't know why but my stutter somehow become worse when I have to open my camera while talking in the class, It just I acknowledge that my classmate/lecturer can see I struggling/stuttering when I'm talking. Long story short the impromptu conversation practice went hell. I stuttered on every sentences. I really felt guilty towards my teammates because of me they can't have a good practice. Right after our session ended , I've decided to message the lecturer to explain to her what's just happen ( because she thought we have a connection problem, yknow stutter=lagging idk I hope y'all undertand ) this I would say a big step I've ever done, open up about my stutter. Even with my close friend , I think they just know I stutter. I don't really talk to them about my stutter. The lecturer is kind enough to understand me and she told me not to worry about it so much and take it easy. Reading her response make my heart warms and I nearly cried lmao. One thing I learned from this whole situation is I need to mfkin addressed that I stutter and be not ashamed about it. Stutter in my mother language is (gagap) I'm Malaysian and somehow I think that word really humiliate me as a person who stutter. I really hate that word and anyone who said it to me. I just want to share here because idk where to share anymore.