I completely understand, I spent so long being depressed and questioning why I was born like this that ending it seems like such an easy way to end how alone I feel inside. Only 1% of the entire world stutters and that statistic is terribly isolating. However, I learned that there’s a few “perks” of having a stutter. I analyze conversation around me and every sound that comes out of my mouth that I am much more observant than most people which will be really beneficial when I'm a doctor one day and because of that, I am an incredibly fast thinker. If I'm stuttering or know I'm gonna stutter/freeze, I'll reword myself so the flow is more coherent. Because my oral skills obviously are not as good as a typical person, I am a fantastic reader and writer to make up for that which really helps in emails and such. A stutter is a difficult thing to live with but because of that, I'm a much faster thinker and truly believe all stutterers are more intelligent than the rest of the world for how differently we view language and the world. My dad stutters too so I don't feel as alone as most people probably do and while it is not something we've ever discussed, I can see how he is much smarter than my normal-speaking mom because of this condition he has. I don't know how he feels about having a daughter that stutters but I try to make him proud by how ambitious my dreams are so I encourage you to do the same and impress everyone around you. The more successful you become, the happier you will be. You don't have to do anything major, it's the small victories that count like going on a date, hanging out with friends, talking in front of groups, etc. Every social interaction should be celebrated because it is not at all easy so the more you pat yourself on the back and say "yes I stuttered but I made it through this," the easier it will be to cope with this condition.