I think you misunderstand me I value my life I would never kill myself. OTHERS put me in this situation why would I punish myself for something I didn't cause. They deserve to die not me. ​ The pain of others surpassing me in every way imaginable, sexually, financially, socially, Does get unbearable but I will never get to a point where I put them over me, they deserve to burn in hell because I didn't do anything.