It’s definitely hard to accept, but for me I want to beat it. I think we’ve all had periods of fluency at some points in our life. I’m 21 years old, and for the first 17/18 years of my life I spoke fluently. I believe that if you can speak fluent for even just a day, you can speak fluent any day. Sure it may always be wired into our brains deep down somewhere, but I believe this is a thing that can be overcome. I want to beat it