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I'm 20 and getting desperate 20M here, been stuttering since i was 8 with a very severe stutter, back when i was 18 i got accepted into a CS major but dropped out when i realize i had to do monthly presentations for the whole class, i was already exhausted from all the pain and suffering in highschool so starting all this again 20x worse was an impossible task for me. Since then I've focused on trying to find a "cure" to my stutter or something that at least makes me able to talk in public w/out stuttering, but that didn't work and i'm still stuck on the same spot Luckily my family has enough money to easily sustain me but i don't plan on being a burden for the rest of my life, so I don't know what to do, last year i re did the entrance exam and got a better grade than the time i got in 3 yrs ago so i can go back if i want to, but if i do, i fear the same thing will happen, should i risk going back, with the exact same level of stutteri had 2yrs ago, dropping out again and wasting even more time of my life or skip college, specialize in one skill and get a job(which is my preferred option right now)? Also I've been reading posts from this sub about people in a similar situation and the response is usually "don't let your stutter define who you are" and i wholeheartedly agree, it's a very great mantra to live for but that doesn't for me, i can not talk more than 3 words with someone without stuttering on the 4th for 8 seconds, everytime i ignore it and talk to people while stuttering they start to grin in a "trying not to laugh way" it's fucking humiliating