Hi there. Sounds like you were doubtful of yourself, that things that matter to you might be out of reach when you get older, such as asserting yourself to say what you want to say. To make things happen. For what’s it worth, I believe you will be able to make this happen. It might take hard work, a lot of hard work. With ups and downs along the way. But if you work hard enough, and tap into support and encouragement along the way, it can happen for you…..