Hey man, I feel you a lot. In no way am I trying to minimize what you're going through because I mirror a lot the sentiments you expressed- especially feeling like a shadow of my true self. Communicating properly is such a necessary component to getting what you want in life a lot of times. Sometimes stuttering feels like the worst thing but it's not. At least you aren't (I'm assuming) physically disabled or disfigured. With regards to women, yeah they're going to pick up on your stutter obviously but they will also pick up on, and take into account your confidence in spite of stuttering. Work on your game, work on your self, and keep trying. There's much to be said about accepting the cards you're dealt, no matter how shitty, and making what you can with what you have. There's always room for improvement. Hang tough dude.