Stuttering is hard. My stutter had such a negative effect on my personality and who I grew up to be. Can you get into see a therapist? Someone to talk to, and a chance to express your feelings. That can be helpful. To be clear, I mean a psychologist, not a speech pathologist. Journaling can also help relieve you of some of the feelings. Circling back to speech pathologist... I always advocate for speech therapy. In my experience, public school speech therapy was unhelpful. But when I found a professional speech therapist, it made a huge difference in my life. I went from severe stutterer to achieving great fluency. The next time your stutter ruins your day, take a long, hard look at how it ruined your day. Was it the stutter, or was it your behavior? I used to "cheat" around my stutter. I would avoid conversations, I would just do dumb stuff to avoid my stutter. Then I felt bad about myself. If you find that your stutter is dictating your behavior, that's where I would focus my attention. Stop your stutter from making decisions. This is going to be incredibly hard the first few times. But if you're seeking confidence, I believe in taking your life back from your stutter. You're right that there's nothing wrong with having a speech impediment. But it feels like there is. I knew there wasn't anything wrong with me, but I didn't believe it. Everyone here believes in you.