I feel you, I used to find ways to get around of speaking when there is the chance, I started leaving notes or type stuff to communicate for some time, I really wanted to get rid of this stutter, sometimes we just have to get used to getting embarrassed, being humiliated in public speaking, so what, everyone knows I just have this stutter problem, the next time you speak you don’t have to think about what others think, the more you are being careless of the consequences of stuttering the better you’ll handle yourself when speaking