Life with a speech impediment can be very hard, simple tasks that seem to be easy tend to be a lot harder. Keep your head up high, friend. Surround yourself with people who fill your life with joy and hope. Always remember, you are stronger than this impediment. As a fellow stutterer, I can't say I haven't thought about it, but as I got older I understood that I shouldn't let my impediment control me, neither should you. Stay strong and believe in yourself. You can do this! :))