Dude, I know how you feel. I was in that state of mind before but it shall pass. You must accept your stutter as a way of life.. and only then will you be able to move past it where you still stutter but don't see it as a problem, more as a personality trait. I used to hate speaking in class, at work and to girls but now it's all changed. I'm in medical school and although I still stutter everyday, I get no backlash from my attending physicians, patients or fellow students. You become what you think of yourself... Other people cannot define you. Good luck