I hate me

I hate me IAm an 18 years old boy i stuttered when i was a kid and it just disappeared . All of a sudden it came back again but stronger i feel like i hate myself and I don't want to talk anymore I am literally scared to talk but a part of me keep telling me that i should fight and that i shouldn't be depressed and scared like this for the rest of my life and honestly i can't stand it so guys please help me because iam on verge of insanity what sholud i do to cure it i don't want to stutter anymore