This is so accurate, I was just thinking about my stutter and how I hold things back from people, like a story I’d like to share or a comment on something I’d like to say. It must be really amazing to purely speak your mind with others without searching for distract words in your mind or worried about what others think. I really do think people would have very different opinions on my personality without my stutter. I’ve went times well say mostly on drugs like I remember a time I had taken mdma with some friends and I could speak my mind as I wanted to, I was a little fucked up obv but my speech was clear and easily understandable. Sometimes I wonder are people the reason for my stutter, when I’m around people is that the switch that interferes with my central nervous system and triggers stuttering. It’s like thinking clearly in my head when I’m alone is what other people can do out-loud and I’m going to be honest I’m jealous, it must be awesome to walk up to a girl at a bar and speak your mind fluently or be involved with friends in conversation at all times. Stuttering holds me back so much from making new friends and being myself around people, I hold myself back so much. On the other hand it’s made me into the person I am today, since I’m not chilling out and talking to people so much all that’s really left is to focus on myself and what I want out of life, I have the time to put the effort into things that I think about and really make it happen