Okay, so you gained some respect amongst your peers, I understand that. Although, as you stated yourself, communication can be a nightmare. As social beings almost every aspect within our lives is determined by how well we can communicate to one another. Wouldn't you wish to trade that self respect gained for a far easier life? Not fighting you or anything, just genuinely curious. I would never wish this upon anyone. It's cursed my life with how it effects my self esteem, my confidence and my work ethic. It's extra baggage added on to an already difficult life we all have.