I love these questions. I am still not 100% at peace with my stutter, it still gets me down sometimes and I still hate answering the phone, but acceptance, even partial acceptance has made it feel like much less of a shadow over my life. I saw that you you mentioned becoming a teacher or leading a meeting as possibly one of your measures of success, and you can absolutely do either of those things! Right now my job is a little bit of both of those, and although there are bad days, they're getting fewer and farther in between. Practicing daily with speech and realizing how much people really don't care (usually) is super helpful. Lastly, you said you are from Macedonia, but you have such a master on English that language seems to be one of your strong points, not something to be nervous about =) I would definitely give college another shot if I were you, it's a great environment to learn all sorts of life skills as well as academic ones, including confidence!