We're all been through tough times like these, I know I have. But you're not alone. I found help in my local NSA chapter (National Stuttering Association). I go to my local chapters meeting once a month and it's helped me immensely... let's me know that's it's ok to be a stutterer. I would HIGHLY suggest finding your local chapter and going to a meeting!! I was going through stutter related depression and it absolutely changed my life. (And it's free) Check out all the information here: http://www.westutter.org We all love you man, you'll get through this. It's ok to reach out for help. Speech therapy isn't almost the best option, but it might certain help. Please let me know if you need anything man! I'm here for you