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Worse day by day. Hi, my name is Matt. Im 18, I've been to two weeks of intence therapy twice. The results are always the same. Im almost completly fluent and happier than I have ever been before. However the results aren't permament. It takes some time but at the end of the day the results of speech theraphy are non-existant something like three months after. I'm training (idk what phrase should I use) every day by reading books out loud to my friend. She is probably the only friend I have right now. The rest of my friends turned away from me as my stutter has gotten worse once again. I feel hopeless, bitter and resentful. I really hope that this is at least partially my fault so I can fix it somehow. If it is not then.. well. May god that I don't believe in save me because I don't think I am not getting out alive from this issue. Jumping to the reason why I am posting this. We were having a discussion today during my polish lessons and being the outapoken person that I am I couldn't help but take an active part in it. I have never felt as embarasaed as I felt today. I couldn't say a single word fluently. I couldn't control my breathing and I got lost in what i wanted to say, you can only imagine that so did everyone else. I dont know what to do anymore.. i just needed to let go of that thoughts and I figured that no one would understand me better than my fellow stutterers.