Bro, I feel for you. I really do. and if there is one thing I wish someone had told me when i was young was that "its okay to stutter". This might take time but you'll find ways around your stutter, you'll find word that come out better and ways to pronounce them which can even make you look smarter. ​ But don't think of suicide my child. It breaks my heart to read that you thought about it. You have your whole life ahead of you, so please dont let it go because of a few words. Only you can understand what it feels like and only you can tell your story. I will pray for you and hopefully you'll blossom into an amazing person who has their stutter under control, or if not under control I hope you make peace with it. Give yourself credit for coming here! you gave presentations and gave your orders!!! like i dont know if I would have been able to do that if I was younger. I was just a shy kid sitting in the corner. You are light years ahead of me and I hope I could have been as brave you. Please dont think of suicide, you are acing at life already. We want to see people like you get ahead in life and be an inspiration for us. You are half way there. Don't let speed bumps pull you down. ​ Praying for you buddy!