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Rough day today I had a job today with a client I've had for about a year and she's never heard me stutter. I don't know her that well but I've always been comfortable around her and have never had an issue so I've never explained my situation. I didn't sleep well last night, coffee maker didn't wanna work this morning, it was 33 degrees and raining, kids didn't wanna get up and ready for their last day of school this week, and blah blah etc.. All the lead up for a shitty day. I stuttered even speaking to my wife before I left the house which frustrated me beyond anything because she's the one person I can talk to anytime and be stutter free. I get to the job an speak to the owner of the home and it's just block after block, twitching, and actually getting stuck on letters that I can always say fluently. I take a break and go smoke a joint cause that usually works for me... nothing changes. My guys are looking at me funny cause it's bad today, and I'm feeling horrible. The homeowner comes out and we chat.. we'll she does and I block every other word, and she asks me if I'm on drugs and says it's ok to seek help if I need it! I actually left the job and went home. I cried lol like I haven't been this upset or had this bad of blocks in forever and she made me feel horrible more than I already did. I didn't even have the energy to correct her or tell her anything. I'm telling everyone this because I want people to know it's ok and it happens. Sometimes we can be as comfortable as anyone ever has been or as over it as you can be but sometimes.. sometimes the set back is real. I'm 37 and haven't had a day like this in forever, stay strong and power thru! Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day