I've struggled with these thoughts also. But just think of how things have changed over the years as far as doing things. 5 to 10 years ago I wouldn't bother ordering pizza because it involved the phone but now we can do it easily online. I avoided drive thrus because of the need to talk and higher risk of the person not hearing me on the other end. Now there's an app and curbside delivery. I know these things are pretty small but they are little bits of joy that are possible for us. I'm with you about missing out on just socializing with other people like others do. Sometimes I sit and wonder what it's like for others to just speak without having to think really. I remember being so scared and nervous about going to new classes in fear that the teacher would ask everyone to introduce themselves to the class. Just saying my name was incredibly difficult and sometimes I would have to resort to making believe I wasn't paying attention and someone else would say it for me. Anyway let me finish by saying a couple things that helped me. Someone once said that stutters are more sincere about what they say because of the struggle to get it out. That stuck with me and I always just imagine people automatically think this way when I am required to speak. I noticed you said you wanted to just make some videos. Give that a shot! I live stream and met lots of really great people who like me for me. Give things a shot and you will surprise yourself. Best of luck to you!