Let it out if you need to. But don’t feel despair, we’ve all been there. If you’ve had speech therapy, don’t forget that there’s an emotional side to it too. Speech therapy is good to overcome stuttering but look into counselling, specifically CBT. I found it so useful for all the stress, anxiety, depression and even PTSD that it caused. Don’t underestimate talking to someone 😊 you can pick yourself up and overcome this! I believe in you friend!