Life is already bad now my stutter is randomly back.

Life is already bad now my stutter is randomly back. I haven’t dealt with this crap in YEARS. I forgot I had it. I don’t even have a normal stutter. I have the dreaded speech block and I HATE it. My confidence has plummeted all the way to zero. I never know what word I’m gonna get stuck on. Now I look like a freaking idiot whenever I try to talk. I don’t even stutter just my ability to speech is completely blocked.