Same, really. I remember feeling such shame over it. I was taking speech therapy when I was around 18 years old, and I remember lying to my speech therapist about doing my speech therapy homework with friends. Even though it was obvious I had a problem, and my best friends certainly knew it, I just couldn't admit to it. I felt too ashamed. When I finally learned to accept, to own it, my life improved vastly. I stopped caring so much that I stutter, and I found that I actually stuttered less. I now do a job where I interact with the public and actually answer phones, which used to be (and still kinda is at times) terrifying.