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is this how things are supposed to be? I'm not even 18 rn but I feel like I've seen enough. Every day seems endless and pointless. The embarrassment of stuttering in front of my family is eating me up. to make matters even worse I'm doing this internship thing where there are NUMEROUS group discussions. I just can't seem to get my words out. I want to take up many other volunteer work and teach for the kids who seek a teacher. but this stutter comes in the way of everything. talking to my friends on the call is just a special kind of awful. it's so hard to accept the fact that maybe I'll never be able to get over this. that maybe I won't get a job. that maybe I'll never fit in. that I'll never be enough. sitting silent in family or friends get togethers even though I have a lot to say just to save me and my family the embarrassment..... keeping quiet eventhough I have something that I want to share...the fact that my family seems ashamed of me is the cherry on top. if this is how things are gonna be, then is it even worth it?