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Currently having stuttering problems Hi, so I'm currently 15 y/o right now, and I have this kinda weird stuttering problem. It all started last year, in 2016, when I was in grade 8. I still remember when I first stuttered, it was the time when the teacher asked me to read something from the book out loud. Well that was at the right timing. I wasn't concerned about this back then. My classmates laughed at me and I just laughed at myself and that's it, it was kinda embarrassing but it didn't affect me somehow, I just told myself that everything will be fine. Somehow, after a few stutters, I've managed to read the whole thing though which is nice, also I have a pretty deep voice, which is also nice. So I just wanna keep this short. I thought that my stuttering will get well over time, but it became worse. I stutter when I talk to other people, including my friends and parents. I always stutter when I talk to my dad, but with my mom I am careful with my words so I sometimes stutter. It only happens sometimes with my friends though, not every time. If I speak english with a bulgarian accent, I rarely stutter, but I only do that to the people I'm comfortable with, like some of my friends, since we like to speak english almost all the time. I kinda like singing. when I sing, I don't really stutter, I just go with the flow, I rarely stutter when singing, but I only sing privately though, I don't want to make someone's ears bleed. Whenever I think out loud, I sometimes stutter. When I'm talking to strangers, reciting in class etc., I stutter, especially when speaking our native language. And so, here's the weird part. Whenever I'm feeling confident, or whenever I feel like a badass. It's like I can talk to anyone, like my stuttering is gone. Always happens whenever I feel like I am the king of the world. But this only happens sometimes though, right now, I am currently having the stuttering problem and school is almost coming, in our country. I think I'm getting anxious right now. I don't wanna mess up my introduction again just like in last year in grade 9, and also I don't think there are speech therapists in our city, cause we live in a very small city, taxis don't even exist here and we only have like 1 mall lmao. Anyone having similar problems? Thank you for your answers! OH, and a few more things.. I would also like to point out that I'm a silent guy, I don't really talk that much, In school, I am known as the most silent person ever in my class. Had that title before I started to stutter. I only talk when someone is talking to me, or when I'm with my friends, since I'm very comfortable with them, I can be very weird when they're around. I rarely talk when I'm at my house, I'm currently teaching my self programming and I'm focusing on that right now at my house and I don't really want to talk to anyone. I was thinking that I forgot how to speak because I'm too silent. Here's another weird thing though, When someone suddenly asks me a question, I respond without stuttering, if I'm not expecting anyone to ask me a question, and they ask me a question by surprise, I don't really stutter, It's like in my subconscious or something.