Thank you for reading my post.☺ I'm emtry and every fields are equal boring-- major depression thought. I used to love art when I was a teen but people in my country value science(especially health science) much more than art. I was forced to change myself to be interested in science, study in healthcare field, and then I failed 2 times because all professors and classmates were gifted in science and loved the field, I could not meet their expectations. I thought I'd study and work what I like when I moved to US but hey jobs for stutter immigrant are very limited. I ended up working in a Chinese kitchen, I hate but I worked for a year. I think if I can be tolerant with this sh*t job, I'd find another sh*t job that makes more money and not use very much physical movements like working in a Chinese kitchen, working there was like I worked out all time, very tired. I don't go back to art field because I lose my ability to see things like an artist and create art, and the most important is artistic field is very high competitive, only few artists make lots money while others are broke. I have lost myself, but it's ok. I can change. I am not interested in science but I also not interested in most everything. I lie and fake smile to get money but I am a bad liar.