I lived my entire life afraid of what people would think of me because of my stuttering. As a child I got made fun of and called names like retard. I believed people would think that of me my entire life. I've wasted so many years hiding. One day it clicked and I stopped caring. Now I work in retail. I do customer service. There will always be those miserable assholes in life but the majority of people don't care. They just want help. So I know all to well the self pity and being the victim. You gotta want more than you're afraid. I still stutter but now it doesn't hold me back.