Honestly the real deep true answer to why I want to join may be left unanswered because that little part of me doesn’t know. The surface of the answer, and even this goes so far, leaving little margin to why I do and don’t know. But the answer why I do is because I can do it. I know I can “survive” how tough and rugged it can be in the marines. I know I can. I can, that’s all. Even with such a small barrier we all perceive as a mile high obstacle. It’s in my mind, the way I get nervous and go off the deep end until it’s hard to breath man. The way I see it be I’ve been bullied my whole life or given these weird stares from everyone except for the handful of humble folks. But in the US military I feel we’re all brothers and sisters and they’re only trying to help me. I hope I made sense thank you for listening I’ll check out the podcast