Learn to love yourself. Be that torch in the windstorm, never give in. Find your copes, your cheats, take a breath, gather your synonyms and thoughts, move forward and enjoy it. I went from fear of the world to police officer/swat paramedic, I’ve done it all. I give my fluent wife a hard time for being afraid to speak in front of a crowd. I speak in front of crowds all the time. It’s you against you.