Fuck bro! It is as if I wrote your post. I feel exactly the same. I always ask why must I stutter? Why not some other guy. Why the fuck me!? Im not in school anymore though. But school was hell. I never did presentations or read out loud, participate in group work or asked questions. If I didnt understand the work, then I didnt understand it. I couldn't ask for help. I shut up and did my work. That's it! I too have anxiety. I don't like mixing with people. Not just because of my stutter but most off the people suck anyways. I have a fiance though, your chance will come to get a girlfriend. Believe me, some girls find stuttering sexy for some reason, don't ask me why. Just be patient. Keep your head up bro. I know it hard, it hard as hell. But we are strong people. Other people will never endure stutter, if they stuttered. I recently bought anti anxiety pills, (not heavy meds, it's over the counter meds), and I think it works just a little bit. Well, my willingness to drive improved a lot. Maybe you can try that.