OP, I hear the frustration and the despair that is emanating from your post. I totally as with others in this subreddit group are experiencing as well. For me personally, stuttering has 100% DESTROYED my life. I so wish that my handicap was one that could be visibly seen and not hidden. I fell that if I had a visible handicap then thed psychological torture effects would be lesser to a degree. The intensity of my stutter makes Porky Pig sound fluent. OP, another member, u/Agency_Afternoon has suggested the working of a speech therapist, and the joining of a support group. In my opinion of 47 years of living through a daily hell have provided two very good suggestions. OP, I do not know if you live in the USA, as I do (San Francisco). There is a association called "[The National Stuttering Association](https://www.westutter.org) (NSA)". I have been associated with them before the rebranding called "The National Stuttering Project (NSP)" that started here in San Francisco back in 1977, and rebranded in 1984. The NSA has what is called "[NSA Chapters](https://www.westutter.org/chapters)". These Chapters are support chapters for people like us. The NSA Chapters meet in person most of the time once per month. Some Chapters meet 100% virtually, using Zoom or Google Chat. We have people from all over the world would join a virtual NSA Chapter. So, the NSA is open to ANYONE who stutters. At the Chapter meetings either virtually or in person, in some cases we have our "NEW" stuttering family for the very first time. A lot of stutters who attend a NSA Chapter meeting for their very first time, have never known or come in contact with another Person Who Stutters (PWS). Their look on their faces and some who cried with shear happiness when they say that they are happy to find another person like themselves, who knows and feels the exact same struggles they are living on a hourly basis. OP, you are probably wondering how much is this going to cost me, meaning you? You WILL NOT have to sell your first child, WILL NOT have to take out financial loan, and nor WILL NOT have to go into the bank robbing business to afford the cost to attend a NSA Chapter Support Meeting. The cost is 100% FREE! At a NSA Chapter Support meeting, you are not forced to take part, you can practice any type of stuttering therapy method or methods. I have went to a meeting and just sat there and said nothing. On the times I just sat in silence it helped me mentally. Knowing that I am around "MY PEOPLE", "MY STUTTERING FAMILY". As I reply to your post OP, and with others on this stuttering subreddit form, I know the struggles my stuttering family member is posting, and all the emotions that comes with those struggles. It gets me a bit emotional. OP, you have to overcome the struggles in 60 second segments. Then slowly build up your tolerance and acceptance level over time. I feel we as PWS have to be like this until science figures out how to fix our brain so we no longer stutter. Good luck OP