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Experience Attended an interview. They were highly impressed, never once stumbled on words or experienced speech blocks. I was unusually my usual confident self, related my experience in my career (even though my imposter syndrome often tries to bring me down lol), received positive feedback. In the same high spirits, I tried applying for a couple more jobs but didn't receive any news about it. Now, I can sense it dying off and my insecurities are resurfacing. My only problem is these blocks. During a conversation or something, if I try to name a country or city (starting with O, A, I, U, E) I can't. I try to but it just wouldn't come out but I can say the same words after sometime or during a different situation. Even the words I want to say don't come out when I go to a store to get something. I have all the potential but I can't communicate during important times, give information over the phone (class related inquiries). Also, I'm skilled in a number of areas but these employers just try to get all the work done for an unreasonable payment. I'm financially down, struggle with these blocks, have to work adding mental pressure to my already anxious mind, but no reasonable earnings. Life is a tad too cruel, at varying degrees, for many in this world ):