My man, I know you’re in a bad place rn but just read these comments from other stutterers and know you’re not alone. I was just like you in high school, 25 now, with a lot of long prolongated blocks that had me looking stupid. My best advice is to look for some therapy in your area either at your school or a clinic. The therapy I got at 18 changed my life and led me to soon become an SLP (current grad student). In the mean time though do your best to keep moving forward and not letting it get to you. The more you accept it and the less you let it affect you, the more confident you’ll look to other people and to yourself. Just keep livin