Yeah I feel ya, I'm at that point now. But the difference is I'm a grown man so I have to force myself or im looked at like a coward & a failure by my family.. I personally have a wedding coming up that I would give anything not to go because I know there's gonna be people there that will clown the way I talk if I slip up and it's not like I can even defend myself & ruin the wedding...I'm a social person naturally but at this point being alone is better than constantly being severely stressed & angy from ridicule 😩...I wish I could experience life more & maybe find another girlfriend. But being alone is better for my health I feel because most people can never act properly & treat me with average respect it seems