Feels like Im living life at 5 percent

Feels like Im living life at 5 percent Im sorry if im so negative, its my first post on this section. Second post ever on reddit but its just one of those nights. Feeling really depressed tonight as I feel im not living my full life. Because of my stutter its made basic things so hard to do. Everything in life you have to communicate whether it be school, work, friends, family, relationships, phone calls even ridiculous stuff like ordering food I cannot do. I froze and couldn't even say my name today. My own fucking name. Its honestly so depressing and I've gave up hope. P.S...If there's anyone who lives near the New York area feel free to reach out. I've never had a stuttering friend and it would be cool to connect someday! :)