I totally get this. I find it real hard to start a conversation with people when I’m experiencing a bad speech day. Like I can literally sit beside someone at lunch and not be able to initiate a conversation for 30mins. I think I come across as an asshole sometimes but man inside I’m dying to say something but I just can’t. It’s an awful condition sometimes and I feel it’s robbed me of my personality. I do try and stay as positive as I can tho