Yeah, I go through phrases like that periodically. You're more-or-less describing myself, in terms of the social awkwardness. A lot of the issues I've had I could blame on my stutter. I sometimes think about what my own life would be like if I didn't have a speech impediment, and thoughts like those keep me up at night. I think there was a point in my life where I mostly stopped caring at what other people think of my stutter and that helped for me.