I truly hope you seek help suicide is not the answer to stuttering! I’ve stuttered my whole life so I get the Bullying and the low self esteem I still have my days! But there’s more to life then your stutter with practice and some speech therapy you can get through this! I know how frustrating it is when you wanna join in on group conversations, phone calls, or just regular conversations. You have to stop beating yourself up and live your life your stuttering doesn’t define you it’s only part of you. You can overcome anything!!