I believe that through working on ourselves (our body and mind) we can improve and become a better person to ourselves and to others. My problem is that i don't have enough motivation to do that, i'm lazy (but i'm beginning to question if it's actually JUST laziness and not actual lack of motivation), i need something or someone to make me do those things, because i'm not sure i can do it alone, but when will i find the help i seek for? And who or what will help me? My future is very uncertain in many ways but i still have hope, i hope we can get through this, in a way or in another. I wish you the best, always remember to do the things you like (i think that's one of the purposes of life, doing the things you enjoy (as long as they don't hurt you or others)), and try to work on yourself to become a better person, even a small change in my opinion is a sign of great will, i really hope we'll both be able to do this