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Can I get rid of it? I'm sorry if some parts don't make sense. I'm currently 16 years old (M). I've had an extreme stutter for about 10 or 9 years now. My stutter is unique. Sometimes it acts as a normal stutter, sometimes my face and my tongue act weird when I try to talk, sometimes I just can't get the word/phrase out so I just stand there like an idiot, I also very rarely talk completely normally. Sometimes I feel closer to being mute than being able to talk, in important situations where I have to interact with someone I don't know, I decide to write on a paper because I just can't talk. I never really understood its origin, or why it's happening. My dad says it's because I don't focus on something before I say it. I find that to be a ridiculous guess. I've tried the "Say it 3 times in your mind then say it out loud" thing. It failed miserably. His argument is that I sometimes talk normally. Even I don't know why that happens. I've always felt like there is no hope for it. My dad sometimes suggests that I stay away from my phone and laptop. I also find that to be ridiculous, I can't just avoid all technology to just talk normally. The worst part is that sometimes he gets mad at me for it, even though it's not my fault, and I hate it more than he does. Whenever he gets mad, he tells me that I am not paying enough attention to it, or that I should try to get rid of it somehow. The problem is that I don't even know where to start, I've tried searching about it, every resource I find is about the ordinary a-a-a e-e-e kind of stutter. My dad is amazing. It's just this one thing that he absolutely cannot accept. Any advice is welcome. There are more parts to the story but I can't type that much right now. If someone wants to chat I will highly appreciate that too. Note: I'm Christian. Any advice related to God/praying will also be appreciated.