Ah yeah. I feel you on the inconsistency, for me it was a lot of anxiety that i had to unpack - this took me months to complete, but ofcourse that differs from person to person: - Sit still and commit to stopping every activity, so that includes minor movements, thoughts, engagement in indentifying etc. This always does the trick of making me rather uncomfortable, and because you can do this alone you can mimic the feelings you have when you stutter. The more you fail at sitting still the more you actually are succeeding. The mind will give in at some point - it might take hours the first session. However, the more still you are able to make the mind the longer you can stay with a particular thought. This creates a magnified effect of exposure therapy. That said, exposing yourself to build tolerance to that built up anxiety takes time and stability. Now i have one more thought to leave with you and it is more speculative, as i am still processing the idea in my mind: - Stuttering is a self-induced projection, coming from shame and guilt originating from a realisation that verbal influence has very deep consequences. Most possibly circling around a dormant capacity to engage in behavior that is both assertive and courteous. Being at a verbal advantage in this realm can be frightening when you observe even minute effects, leading to a mistrust based perhaps an immoral imbalance between your verbal power to assess and anothers’. But whether we did nerf our speech for the betterment of others or not, at existential times like this it is no use to find ourselves. We are already currently staring to ourselves in the depths of our eyes and should embrace what is there. Power in this world can mean a lot of good, our voices might just have been locked away to prevent corruption in an attempt of pure moral altruïsm.